?Thursday, September 03, 2009
Heidi blows a kiss to you, dearly, @8:53 PM!
Eff the emo world.
And then again, I'm blogging -_-. Studying binomial theorem right now and this sucks.
I should just drill this into my head - I LOVE STUDYING.
Studying's my favourite pastime!!!
Yay. ^^v.
I don't know why you've to put me through all these again, y'know.
I used to think; even if everyone in the whole world dies, I'd still have you to depend on. You promised me.
And yes, I used to. This is the worse thing that has ever happened to me. (Seriously speaking.) I never knew my negligence would cause me to lose someone so dearly. And till now, I have no idea exactly what went wrong.
Like, I know it's my fault and all but the truth is: I haven't forgotten you.
And ask yourself. Will I ever? You and I know the answer best.
You assume I already have. You assume our friendship's gone. And you keep telling to face reality. What's this uh.
I won't choose to face this reality because in my world, this'll never happen.
This friendship belongs to you and me. Are you going to dump me like he did and just leave this way -_-. Are you seriously going to?
I'm sorry for everything I did that hurt you. If I knew everything, I wouldn't repeat the same mistake. But you've gotta understand my plight too. It's not that my boyfriend outweighs you in my heart, it's not that I treasure him more than I treasure you. It isn't okeh.
I'm sorry if my actions didn't show all these. Are you just going to judge me on what you see. Alex, you should know. You know how much I miss you, how much you mean to me. And let me tell you, you've never drifted away from my heart before. Just because I don't show it does not mean I don't feel that way.
C'mon, you've got your girlf. Your own stuff to worry about. Why in the world would you even entertain all my nonsense. You'll, at the end of the day, get annoyed by me. Would I want that to happen? Not at all. Who wants his/her bestest bestfriend to get annoyed by her. But little did I know...
There's so many should-haves in my mind right now.
Tell me what I can do to get you back.
Why, of all people, must you be the one doing this to me? Was it like what you used to say... Because of boredom?
Oh so I see, now I know the answer already.
You're just bored of me.
I just can't believe this is happening. Someone, save me.
When life begins with you,