?Friday, February 06, 2009
Heidi blows a kiss to you, dearly, @3:35 PM!
Away on cruise!
This post is specially dedicated to: My girlf/bestf/boyf/baby/mashimaro/kaixinguo! :D
I don't know where to start with. But here's what i want you to know, that i still love you.
Like, these 3 years. I swear i'm sad when you told me you felt nothing for me at all. Cause we've been through so much together since little kiddys. And you've thought me everything. My work, my behaviour, everything in my daily life. And now that we've parted, it's very hard for me.
To let go of you.
I remember what we did together. And what we played. Tickling and the qi guai eh thing. And i haven't taught you my pizza game. And all the stuff you got jealous of. All those i got jealous of.
I'll definitely miss the ilys i heard from you. Like, our secret codes. Those we created together.
Everything in my life has you. Whatever i do, you'll just continuously run through my head. Always. I still don't get it, why our stupid quarrel can lead to this. Just because i wanted 5 minutes to talk, you didn't, i got angry, you got angry and we quarreled. I guess you really wanted to study but it was just 5 minutes? I missed you like crazy. 5 minutes really all i needed. And like, you say you're tired of all the quarrels, i know we quarreled alot of times.
But. It was all about different stuff. As in, i remembered about the sleeping thing and the breaking promises thing. I did give in to you alot of times too. Like, it isn't too many to give in to your girlf right? It can never be too many. Cause happiness beats everything. Like, i was always happy with you. Were you? You were right.
I want you back.
If it's all my fault, then give me a chance please?
You want me to wait till Os are over, i can but you won't. I mean like, you didn't promise me you'll come back to me. And i don't want to get hurt all over again. Can you just give me a chance, i want to treasure it. I will.
I cry whenever i think about you.
Omg.
Remember the letters you gave me. Like, in it lies all your promises. Though they're quite silly, but they mean alot to me. Are you going to just forget all of them just like that?
You mean everything to me. Can you just not go.
Can you not dump me, throw me aside. Please?
Don't hate me baby.
Please please please please please please please please.
Think carefully, in account of our chemistry, and like, everything we did together. I want you back. I really do. Please.
When life begins with you,