?Sunday, November 09, 2008
Heidi blows a kiss to you, dearly, @11:20 PM!
this is supertherandom, but oh well! whadeva.
K world, i've been really extremely extremely functionless nowadays :]
handphone camera's servicing, my whole phone's not by my side :(
then! my contacts - all gone.
i feel like some useless piece of garbage. -.- getwhatimean.
skip.
went to watch quantum of solace, it sucks.
K, reconsidering, i guess it's not suitable for me. cos' i really find action movies rather loud and violent. plus, it only give you shocks. don't understand why he has to come up with this kind of thrills. i mean like, it's more of getheartattack kind. i was messaging during the movie laah, almost jumped up of my sit! like so silent and suddenly there could just be a bomb blah. ridiculous.
and like, i was using my hands to cover my eyes practically all the time.
cos' james bond never fails to kill people and like his methods are really violent to outerspace can. i was like, ouch.
went with daddymummy only.
just felt like going out la, :D no idea why but yes.
hmm, and like i hate to say this but here's a fact, i joined the stupid campus.superstar :/ (can't believe i actually thought of being so kind-hearted to pei 'em)
like if it was that i got in, i would have started the post with bigbigbigbig fonts + caps + bold + underlined + !!! right.
i did not get in :}
what. it's nothing to hide bout' right! :D cos' like, yes. I CAN'T SING.
and like thejudges thejudges thejudges.
here's it, there's many many many groups lah, and there's different different rooms with different different judges.
i tell you, our one, tsktsk face damn black. prolly cos' too many auditions oreedy :]
but then right, other groups, accrd. to my other cousin, he went in and the judges were damn friendly kind.
*draw judges face on paper and poke poke poke!*
at least theirs were friendly,
n'way. i am super clumsy when i get nervous.
i walked in, forget take microphone that was lying right in front of me, then. afterthat, you're supposed to introduced yourself :} i forgot what song i was gonna sing.
-___________- [that's seriously the stupidest me can]
i was like, shit. but luckily, i have quite a fast reaction :} i remembered the title in time before i really really embarrassed myself in front of the camera.
but there were seconds of silence, :x
sooooooooo crazy!
oh then i sang untl going to finish already can!
:}
this is what they said, 如果你没有走音, 我们会放你进去.
K, so like, translate it yourself, cos' i'm real bad at translating.
so like, i zou yinged :}
and this makes me feel veryveryveryvery fed up :D
YOU TELL ME WHEN WILL YOU GO OUT OF TUNE, WHEN YOU NERVOUS RIGHT!
but then, until now, i still don't quite know where i went out, i guessed it's towards the end. cos' if in front out of tune, they'll get me out early enough. seriously, so i'll forevaaa be left clueless bout' where i went wrong :} that's a really stupid mistake that determined the outcome.
[: oh well.
frankly speaking, i just feel it's wasted. cos' when i sang to them right, i thought it was okay like quite nice eh! hahaha. haiya, yups. just feel a lil'lil' wasted kind. i don't feel sad or emo or what la. cos' like, everybody i did my best! i seriously am clueless bout' where i went outoftune cos' normally you'll be able to hear.
so like, obviously when i asked cousins to find the outoftune spot, it was impossible oreedy!
i dunno what crap am i ranting but i know you understand! {: if not, don't read, it's me and my boliao stuff.
and surprisingly surprisingly, they didn't talk bout' my pronounciation of words.
cos' like, i'm angmoh pai kind, then everyone told me to sing the words really clearly cos' it's like angmoh speaking chinese -.- so nonsense can :} it's quite difficult cos' thats my chinese and there's no way i can improve unless i speak chinese day in day out correct. which, my mind tells me - don't bother to {:
K, i just have this extreme tension within me that's like still VERY clueless about that freaking spot i went out!
i feel like confronting 'em, and like shaking their shoulders front back front. grr :/
this time's experience really fruitful :}
cos' it's very funny going with my cousins, and at least i have a recognition of what my voice's like. how sweet. it's very hardly you hear me sing in front of people. i either come up with an excuse or get people to sing with me :D
n'way, i shall just tell myself it's the judges' fault.
maybe cos' their face tooooo black that's why i went out :} happy!
sucha loser lah me, gah.
oh then me and my cousin were like telling ourselves, hardly anyone got in through that jugde! which i think, is true. hee [:
oh and my cousin, who's damn cheena pai's problem was like, pronounciation of words.
like, what the hell la. so when we sang, suddenly my chinese became better than hers! that's the spastickest thing evaaa, i tell you.
:] oh there's this boy.
he sang supersupersupersuperthenice, which we were queing, we heard.
K, his name is hei ying dong (weirdunique chinese name) from china!
his voice was awesome until my hair all stand :] he might just get into the finals.
anyway, today i felt really cheap. (can't find any suitable word to replace)
like, looked at lah. i walked past these 2 ahbengs, youknowwhat guyno.1 told guyno.2.
"wah, 他穿blue colour的bra eh!"
for heaven's sake, that's damn pervert and chikopeh can.
i'm not trying to tell people what colour bra i wore today, (pardon me for awhile) i mean like ask your girlfriends, blue isn't a boastful colour. blue's quite normal.
my point's that: i feel really ____. yes, like damn it.
i could have just boxed their face can, now i think bout it, I SHOULD HAVE.
i can't believe i got so timid to like run to my cousin :/ uh!
tell me that's not what all guys look out for, i'll just prolly box everyone of their eyes til' cannot see.
uuuuuuuuuh. mummy! :(
hahaha, K, :}
and omg, i went there cos' deandean told me benjamin hum will be there cos' of erina.
then like, i went there 50% cos' of that.
:/ so fed up, he never turned up.
the other 45% for cousins, 5% for myself :]
cos' i know i sing like not say damn nice kind, so my future's not about singing! i just like to sing for the fun of it.
:D k, don't think i'm trying to hide and pretend to be happy, :]
these are seriously how i feel. if i'm sad right, i won't bother writing this post alreadyyyyyy :D
COUSINS HOUSE WAS LIKE, FUN TO OUTERSPACE.
except the superthenonsense old boys touching my face with their dirty hands.
god.
my face eh $%@#$^&#$
toooodles honeypies! :]
this is called; reality.
When life begins with you,
