?Friday, April 20, 2007
Heidi blows a kiss to you, dearly, @10:02 PM!
this post is speciallyy dedicated to mrs loh, forever my principle.
yoo've showered us with care and concernn.
with love and affection.
although i havent been together with yoo for long, it was for a year.
2006 was a veryy meaningfull and touching year for me.
being in class 2.7, was a great pleasure,
and for that, i thank yoo veryyy muchhh!
there was once when my ma-ma passed oonn,
yoo prayed for her while i sat cryingg outside the general office.
no words could express my agonyy.
how i felt, on the 11th july.
i remembered what yoo said,
yoo asked ma-ma to bless me and my familyy...
that one sentence left a great impact on myy heart,
i dunno whyy budd, that was the only time i talked to yoo!
the first and may be the last,
yoo tot me to be stronger in life, and how to face difficulties and overcome them.
i didnt know what to do, when i heard that ma-ma might have already passed on when she was found lying at her home kitchen,
my heart shaked, it was onlyy the next morning, at 6 am when my daddiee told me she had.
i remembered it was a wednesday... i insisted on going to school, as we all had standard test.
although i couldnt reallyy manage that test, i tot it was the last thing i could give to ma-ma before she leaves to another world.
wadever i do on that day before the test is useless, i couldnt do a last minute studyy, whatever that went through my mind was, "where's ma-ma?" i just couldnt take the fact that she's gone and that im no longer gonna see her.
on that wednesday (12 july 2006), i came to school for barely an hour then i had to leave for the wake, i recall: yoo saw us at the phone booth, me and my two friendds.yoo asked if we had recess, no was our answer.yoo knew they accompanied me to call my parents to fetch me upp buddenn yoo gort angryy. i understand, yoo didnt want them to lose their lesson time, i didnt know what yoo told them when i left to the general office.at first, i waited for them buddenn yoo shouted at us, yoo told me to go.i dont blame yoo((:"whatever yoo do, benefits us" right?
haha.on that wednesday(12 july), nort onlyy this happened.it was the last time, i could see my ma-ma.it was rather hard for me to accept the fact that she was gone.I JUST COULDNT TAKE IT.it was terrifyingg for me to see her lying in the coffin.flashes of memories, the times whenn i was with her, came back.i regretted nort being that close to her, maybe because im growing upp.i only gort to visit her every once a week, she fell ill in the earlier months when her haealth deteriorated.i never knew this was going to happen, i never knew disaster was about to strike.
yoo asked me if my grandmother was close to me, she wasnt THAT close franklyy, but my heart chose to say yes.i could feel that our hearts were together no matter what.she was my grandmother, we hardly communicated.when she was gone, i then only remembered when i was young, when i used to see her everyydayy for dinners, hugging her each time.our dialect were totallyy diff, i just dont know how i talked to her!BUDD, I WISHED GOD COULD TURN BACK TIME.let me appreciate her for the last moments of her life.
i know my grandmother always felt lonely, she never smiled, i tried to...i reallyy tried.budd, there was no way.evenn her secrets didnt lie in our hands, she told outsiders.because there was reallyy neveer a time, people could sit down to listen to her.I WANTED TO, BUD JUST COULDNT BRING MYSELF TO IT KNOWING WE HAD COMMUNICATING PROBLEMS.i wished there was an instant translator.
her death made me feel more open and kind and friendly to the society.i never reallyy gort to sit down and talk to my ma-ma.because of yr prayer, and yr concern for me, im one step close to fulfilling my wonderful life.i spend more time with myy meighbours who are elderlyys too, who have seen me since i was born.now, whenever i see her, I'LL SAY HI.
i have a neighbour, whom i call someone i want to be likee, when i grow older.she's an old lady, SHE'S 87!but whos lively at heart. she's weaker now, budd she used to keep herself company with her dog, going to the neighbourhood for some walk.her dog is the same age as me, budd has recently passed away.she's now living with her maid.BUT, I'LL ALWAYS SEE HER DOWNSTAIRS WITH SOME OF HER FRIENDS.and i dunno why budd i love talking to her.although im nort very good at hokkien, i want to learn.so maybe. i'll nort regret...
she always gives us gifts.and for that, I THINK SHE'S A GEM LIKE YOO, MRS LOH.
mrs loh, now i know my ma-ma is in another world, heaven living happily where flowers bloom like they nvr bloomed before, where birds fly like they nvr flew beforei think she's probably iin a honeymoon withh gong-gong, someone whom i've never meant before in my whole life.yoo tot me how to be postive.and its always nort good to be too emotional, yoo tot me to put up a strong front.i couldnt stop cryingg, when i told auntyy devi at the G.O my ma-ma passed away... my tears couldnt stop flowing out.when yoo came in, yoo pat on my back...I COULD FEEL YR LOVE.THANK YOO MRS JENNIFER LOHH.
A SHORT YET MEANINGFUL FIRST YEAR FOR ME.
when my ma-ma was cremated, the priest there said ma-ma bones had marks on them and they were good signs.it means ma-ma was a good person when she was alive, and i feel proud of herr...her unconditional love was one i could feel.she nvr expected nvr return in gratitude when she helps someone.MA-MA, I LOVE YOO!
yoo must get well, my ma-ma is praying over yoo too.
she's always in my heart and in my soul, though now, i still grieve over her.budd, in a much positive way.she's nort lonely...she's found a home living her life, living a life she should; with luxury.and i want yoo to know yoo're nort alone.i'll always remember yoo.
GET WELL SOON.remember!my ma-ma's watching over yoo.
jesus, god, mary are also watching over yoo.
FIGHT THE BATTLE.
NEVER GIVE UPP.
can-do spirit is one of the CORRI valuees.
THANKS A MILLLIIIIOOOONNNN MRS LOHH.
nothing, reallyy nothingg can say how i feel.
yoo're a wonderful principle.
YOO'RE MY PRINCIPLE!ALWAYS...
iloveyoo.*itaian hugg*
yoo'll will overcome this battle!
and choir!jiayou!GOLD WITH HONOURS!FOR MRS LOH!
When life begins with you,
