?Sunday, August 27, 2006
Heidi blows a kiss to you, dearly, @10:55 AM!
OKAY...its likee im really sorryy that i really have to let go.i'll thinkk abt all dishh after the examss.hey....stop making mee feel like...im a reallyy superr unhappy person.i wanna be happy like last time.let me concentrate on my studiess...pleasee.one last time,let me go...
i wont break contact okayy.AT ALL!!i know that person will hate me.budd he's understanding/maybe nort to dish...budd i understand larhxx.okay...i admit i really change lorhh.all i did last time was superr stupidd.like harloo...*****TAY!!YOO ARE STILL SO YOUNGG AND THEN NOW TINKKING OF ALL THESE...i just regret knowing all dishh peoplee.i wanna blame...i blame myself.for beng such busybodies.interfering in their lives.its like all messed upp by mee now.
person...PS:give me a month.i'll call yoo okayy?sry...i wont answer you on msnnn.and i wont talk to yoo okayy?probs i will solve it myself...i cant always depend it on yoo/
2nd person...PS:its likee sry that we cann only chat for 45 mins on the phone/do yoo feel that our friendship or wadever is going apart.its like after that day...yoo wont wanna know that dayy...ya.its so scarryy.im nort gonna cling on you foreverr.if im hurtingg yoo badlyy...SRYY more than aMILLION times.i just cant bring myself to tell you the reason...m,aybe when yoo read dishh self blog...yoo will understandd,or maybe even afterr we really are just friends.yoo will understand.
i just dont know whyy...some people are just fit to be my friendss.nort anythingg esle.well, really lorh.then i wont have to care about dumb things like that. did i really chnage...well, maybe its the conscience inside thats affectingg mee.i did somethinggs wrong...okay.maybe nort some alortt.SORRY/maybe its really time to let goo.budd we'll wait and seee.maybe its just some stupid stuffs affecting uss.i dont know whyy oo tinkk i have changedd.well, it simply means that maybe...yr feelings for me have already change.its just that yoo dont realise itt.I REALISE ITTT.i'll take it as maybe its for a whilee.
whoo will be the one that mends my heart backk.everythinggs happening so fast larhh.i know who cars about mee.budd i definitely wont rmb the people whoos just aking a fool out of themselvess.
ever since i knew that person.its like whenever im sad...he's nort dere.budd im forcing myself to understand that if i dont tell himm im sadd...how ish he gonna sayangg e hors...budd its like.it just feels so great lying on his shoulders one day..and feel the security.and i feel like just hugging him and nort let goo.
budd i know i'll nvr have the chance to do tt/we will nort last.its just a matter of timee.=(((
SORRY!!!
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